I guess to say that I have broken one of my own rules. I told myself when I entered High School that I would never ever fall in love with a friend. Even though the feelings that I felt were strong. I told myself: “I would value the value of our friendship more then anything”. I would rather burn forever keeping the secret to myself, then ruin something I treasure.

I think I fell in love with a friend. I feel so easily confused about the whole situation, I guess because I knew my friend for about three years now. We are actually kind of close, but she just got a boyfriend. The thing that hit me the hardest, was I didn’t really play on those feelings. The feeling that I might have loved her.
I’m happy for her. I like to see my friends smiling and having fun. I felt that she really opened up tonight when we went out, but it didn’t feel the same as when we used to talk. I felt out of place for once in my life with my friends.

Then again, I find myself in my whole loop trip I had in the beginning of the year. I don’t want to go through that again. I’m happy for her, but at the same time I want to cry.
So I have concluded that I will keep these feelings to myself I never let them know about them. Their love will be better then having more problems. Right?

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