Crazy crazy crazy…. It’s funny how life can hit you all at once. Well, at least over a two week period that is.

Well, first and foremost, my Senior year is finally running down to a close.To say the least, my days are whooshing by like the winds of a tornado. Its unbelievable how much time really went by.

My Senior Week event just finished today, and it was quite an event. Its sad to say that not much individuals came to participate in the games my committee members worked so hard to create. Regardless, my decorations worked out really well. I liked them all!

Though sadly enough, one of my rallies got canceled due to the fact that there was absolutely no power to the school. There was rumors going around that the transformer for the school blew up. The story from the principle stated that they were checking it. The thing I don’t understand is, why would they check it during the middle of the week? I guess what pissed me off the most was that one hour after it was canceled, power was restored.

Not to mention how much one of my committee members had to pull out of her A**! Supposedly, they had nothing done, as far as decorations or coordination. They ended up spending all day just doing decorations and all the other things that needed to get done. It looked nice though. XO

With the stress of my Senior Week activities came personal drama as usual. The first being the fact of my college education. Originally, my intent was going to Chapman University to pursue a bachelors degree in Business Administration. Yet, I found out last week Wednesday that my dad was not going to pay for it. By this time it was already too late to apply for scholarships and other things because their deadlines are pretty much over. The ones that were available and I applied for were going to be way to late, and wouldn’t cover the amount that I needed to fulfill the tuition. The thing that pissed me off was that I saw the documents like his W2s and everything, he could afford it. I saw those little zeros at the end of his salary… Don’t tell me he cannot afford the 20 grand I needed.

In addition, I my mother doesnt want to work for her work anymore. You know what that means right? Less money. Its pissing me off..

I mean, why does it always seem like that… I always feel like I’m paying for everyone else’s things. I mean, shit.. My dad paid for my brother and he tells me that he is only going to pay for my second two years. My moms going to quit her job, does that mean that I’m going to have to pay for all of my college? Is she not going to help me?

I really just want to leave this island and get away. I feel like theres nothing for me here… Why does it seem like when my life is going to take off, theres something holding me back. Why cant they just let me go! Why can’t they just leave me alone. I don’t want to be here anymore.