Its like, no matter what I do in this life to try and better myself, my father does a great job of cutting me down, and cutting me off from doing that. He doesn’t support ANYTHING!

It gets irritating that every single little thing I try to do he cuts down and does all he can to ruin it. Its like I can count on someone always there to say: “Oh yeah…. NO!” Yes, you know how you can always count on someone to be there for you when you need it? Well, I have that, just not the support.

Haha, I guess the funny part was that it took me 18 years to figure out that he isn’t there to help me at all. I mean, this is a person that suggests I not go to college, and to shoot for a passing grade of D for projects and classes. I can’t believe how incredibly stupid I am…. Or was.

Like my whole college thing. I’m stuck on this fuckin’ island because he didn’t want to pay for it. I know he didn’t, because he is cutting me down once again. And like idiots the world believed that he actually didn’t know about the whole college ordeal and didn’t know what was going on. It’s like…. Fuckin idiot! It was always my plan. I guess the worst part of it all was that all the people that he gave his bullshit to actually believed him. Ha…. Ha…… Ha….

I decided after that whole ordeal, that upcoming fall year I was going to do it myself and just take the god damn load. I mean, I should have known that he was going to keep me down…. I guess the thing that pissed me off was that he tried to do it again. AGAIN Like….. 20 mins ago. He told me that he wasn’t going to pay for it. I was like…. Omfg….. Then I let it spill… I told him I didn’t give a shit and that I was going to do it myself.

Oh! And then this is what pissed me off more! He said that he couldn’t do it all by himself, and that he was going to need someone to help him. And I thought to myself. I had ALL OF THOSE GOD DAMN FUCKIN ACADEMIC SCHOLARSHIPS LAST YEAR!!!!! THAT SHIT TOTALED TO FUCKIN GRANDS OF MONEY AND YOU TELLING ME THAT YOU NEED HELP? FUCKIN’ KIDDING ME RIGHT? I HAD A SHIT LOAD OF MONEY WAITING FOR ME, AND YOU TRY TO PULL THE EXCUSE THAT YOU NEED HELP?

Bitch please! Don’t give that fuckin’ bullshit you can’t pay for that shit.

Haha…. Then my mother tried to add that we were going to try and get money for me to go to college. I was like. Ha! You fuckin’ kidding me. Nobody gave me a need based scholarship in my life. You are honestly kidding me. I mean, I did a load of scholarships, and not one of them gave me money. Stating that “You have enough family contributions to fufill your college obligations.” I ain’t wasting my time on shit that will turn into nothing.

Damn thing pissed me off and ruined my day. I have shit to do, and he pulls this shit! Its like… FUCK! Don’t you have better timing? I mean, its like he chooses to selectivly try and ruin my life in times of high stress.

I mean, it sucks…. It really does. Its like, you go into things thinking that you can do it, and you have people to behind you, but when times get tough. “Oh! Yeah…. No!”.

Haha…..And people envy me?